99 Random Questions

1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed? Open…so no one can hide in there.

2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel? nope

3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out? in

4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before? No…but I’d do it.

5:Do you like to use post-it notes? I don’t want to admit how many I use daily…

6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them? Yeah…I actually use a good amount of them though #winning

7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees? A bear – because he can’t catch me (I ran track, come at me bro)

8:Do you have freckles? Yep – back of my left hand from driving, and…the whites of my eyes. Creepy, right?! It’s hereditary, not really noticeable. I’m cool.

9:Do you always smile for pictures? Pictures…sleeping…eating. It’s what I do.

10:What is your biggest pet peeve? Hearing someone chew; slow drivers are a close second.

11:Do you ever count your steps when you walk? Never, I walk too fast lol

12:Have you ever peed in the woods? Of course

13:What about pooped in the woods? Mm, probably in my Girl Scout days

14:Do you ever dance even if there’s no music playing? Every. Day.

15:Do you chew your pens and pencils? Gah-ross, never

16:How many people have you slept with this week? Zero. Forever single baha

17:What size is your bed? Full…yet always empty (see what I did there?)

18:What is your song of the week? Drake – Hold On We’re Going Home (makes me want to cuddle, meh)

19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink? Here’s my number.

20:Do you still watch cartoons? no

21:What’s your least favorite movie? Don’t have one

22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some? Classified.

23:What do you drink with dinner? Water

24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in? Sweet & sour

25:What is your favorite food? The one closest to my hand. Seriously, I eat all. day. long.     Can’t pick one.

26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love? The Princess and the Frog, Something New, Cinderella.

27:Last person you kissed/kissed you? hahahaha umm, two months ago, guy I met in a bar (don’t judge, I never do that, it happened)

28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout? YES, for a long time, it was awesome. Master Cookie Seller, rackin up badges.

29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine? Two conditions: I had no kids, and my parents couldn’t know. Then yeah lol

30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper? Can’t even remember, grade school maybe. I miss snail mail.

31:Can you change the oil on a car? NO (hi, dad)

32:Ever gotten a speeding ticket? This week? I mean, yeah…a “few”

33:Ever ran out of gas? Bah, once or twice because I’m stubborn and hate pumping gas

34:Favorite kind of sandwich? Turkey with white American cheese, hot peppers on wheat bread or a white roll (no exceptions/substitutions)

35:Best thing to eat for breakfast? Pancakes, of course. Usually eggs/cereal though

36:What is your usual bedtime? Around 10

37:Are you lazy? Like once a month lol

38:When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween? A mouse with a piece of cheese wrapped around me, an old lady, a doctor…

39:What is your Chinese astrological sign? An ox hahaha

40:How many languages can you speak? 1.5 – English; enough Spanish to survive, not fluent

41:Do you have any magazine subscriptions? Nope, ended them because they became a big recycling pile and rarely got read

42:Which are better legos or lincoln logs? Legos, duh

43:Are you stubborn? When it’s appropriate 🙂

44:Who is better…Leno or Letterman? Don’t watch either

45:Ever watch soap operas? Only one – Passions. Bring it baaackk

46:Are you afraid of heights? Not really…bungee jumping fixed that

47:Do you sing in the car? Loudly.

48:Do you sing in the shower? Sometimes

49:Do you dance in the car? Usually a tame head bob…a little shoulder rock if it’s my jam.

50:Ever used a gun? NO, they scare the crap outta me

51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer? 2009 for work

52:Do you think musicals are cheesy? Yep…but I’m considering buying tickets for my bday bc West Side Story is in town

53:Is Christmas stressful? Buying presents and such, no. Dealing with my immature parents, yes.

54:Ever eat a pierogi? Like once

55:Favorite type of fruit pie? Apple, hello

56:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid? President (seriously)…a lawyer (to become President); never anything fun

57:Do you believe in ghosts? no

58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling? All the time!

59:Take a vitamin daily? Vitamins, not anymore, I (usually) eat well; tons of supplements though (hi, GNC)

60:Wear slippers? Yess, bunnies or pandas

61:Wear a bath robe? Only if the blinds are open and I need to run downstairs

62:What do you wear to bed? Sweatpants and a t-shirt. Sexy.

63:First concert? Maroon 5

64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart? Wal-mart

65:Nike or Adidas? Nike

66:Cheetos Or Fritos? Cheetos…orange fingers are worth it.

67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds? Peanuts

68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien? nope

69:Ever take dance lessons? I did 2 years ago and briefly as a youngin

70:Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing? I’m not getting married.

71:Can you curl your tongue? Yup

72:Ever won a spelling bee? Destroyed the ones for my grade but then got owned up against the big kids. I’m not scarred or anything.

73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy? haha yeah, a month ago when I got the call about new job

74:Own any record albums? Nope

75:Own a record player? Nope

76:Regularly burn incense? Nope

77:Ever been in love? Unfortunately.

78:Who would you like to see in concert? DRAKE or Justin Timberlake…or the three of us, private concert in my living room.

79:What was the last concert you saw? Firefly Festival 2013. Three days, too many artists to name. Epic. (ok, Zedd and Calvin Harris live changed my life)

80:Hot tea or cold tea? Hot

81:Tea or coffee? Coffee addict…Dunkin iced

82:Sugar or snickerdoodles? Just polished off a bag of snickerdoodles

83:Can you swim well? Well enough lol

84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose? Yeah

85:Are you patient? Internally, no; externally, very

86:DJ or band, at a wedding? DJ

87:Ever won a contest? Nope

88:Ever have plastic surgery? No

89:Which are better black or green olives? Green!

90:Can you knit or crochet? haha no

91:Best room for a fireplace? Family room

92:Do you want to get married? Negative.

93:If married, how long have you been married? lol

94:Who was your HS crush? Kobe Bryant

95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way? Eww no

96:Do you have kids? Do my 2 dogs count??

97:Do you want kids? Yesssssss

98:What’s your favorite color? Pink

99:Do you miss anyone right now? Ugh, yes, all the feels

Tuesday

OK. I had eight (8) meetings today. After having three Coronas out on the balcony, I still haven’t calmed down. And the rest of the week at work will be 14-hour days. I can’t.

SO. In an effort to keep my head on straight and not focus on how much I want a new job/other life improvements, I’m making a list of the good things on my mind:

  • I started reading Harry Potter…and am so ashamed. Yes, 5 years after the bandwagon, but whatever. I’ve been on this reading kick lately but I gave up on Fifty Shades of Grey and Hunger Games. So, so much hype for those as well as the Potter series, but kinda eh to me. Don’t get me wrong, 50 is wink wink good, but the story didn’t suck me in. Same for Hunger Games. So after making fun of everyone and not feeding into the hype, I gave in. I never understood how so many adults were obsessing over children’s books and how popular the books/movies became. But I kinda get it now. I’m not into Fantasy books, but it’s a nice escape from everyday life to read about a kid becoming a wizard. Like how can you not love magic? Ok, really nerdy and it’s really silly to me, but it’s just so innocent and fun. I find myself Googling things about it. Ugh, I hate myself for this but am glad that a series finally got me for my summer reading list. And I don’t have to worry about finishing one and being sad there isn’t another one. So shh, I’m a Pothead, don’t tell anyone.
  • Fall is coming and I am PUMPED. Boots and scarves and leaves and apple picking! I can’t wait. Glorious boots! Had to reiterate. I’m slightly obsessed with boots and scarves. Shoes, not so much – I try not to wear heels due to the hassle; but boots?! The flat riding ones are comfy,warm, and look amazing with pants tucked in or with a skirt. Ok, I’m done.
  • I want to find a cute local coffeeshop (not Sbux or DD). To just sit, read, sip, and peoplewatch.
  • What did I ever do before Netflix?! $7.99 is SO SO worth me watching Law and Order SVU times infinity. I watch about 3 episodes a night. All commercial free. All good.
  • But seriously, who told cops that talking into your sleeve is discreet? With an earpiece no less. Maybe it looks like you’re wiping your nose or coughing? I don’t get it. That’s why the perp always runs! (you like my cop lingo)
  • I should be getting my Nikon camera soon and I can’t wait to take pictures of everything everywhere.
  • Talked to my grandma on the phone today – cracks me up every time. Favorite person ever. Beautiful spirit.
  • I’m thinking of doing a drastic diet change…try vegan for a week? Just to see if I can? All I ever hear about is Weight Watchers and it’s not just the cheesy commercials anymore. Have you seen Pinterest? And I read on Webmd that it’s the top-rated diet in terms of overall health and that Paleo is bad & you have to be careful with vegan/veg too. Hmm. Not looking for a “diet,” just slight lifestyle change because my inner nutritionist passion is coming out and I’m curious.

Ok, I feel better…as I turn to my now open work laptop. Sad face. Ugh. Have to man up and work for a few hours to prep for tomorrow, take a NAP, and get to work 2 hours early. At least it’s Wednesday tomorrow? Yeah.

some good things

  • I’ve spent the past 2 hours in bed on my laptop
  • …in my cozy Pink pullover & my flannel pants – I forgot how comfy they are
  • …with the a.c. on so it’s just right
  • …and all of this is particularly lovely right now because I wore an uncomfortable dress all day and I’m a little sore from working out
  • I’ve been having protein shakes for dinner all week and I’m proud that I’ve stuck to it – girls weekend at the beach next week, let’s go swimsuit
  • I’m really excited for said trip and the fact that I only have to work 3 days next week
  • really, I’m surprised and pleased that this shake has kept me full since I usually want to snack after
  • all of this is incredibly pointless but whatev…I might’ve had a cry fest in the car on the way home today over him and I’m trying to distract myself – there’s the truth hahaha

meh

nothing going on…spent the past few days dealing with some old feelings (thanks to someone reaching out to me; there’s a reason I’ve been ignoring you for 3 months). I don’t think we need to elaborate on who that was or why…quite frankly I’m drained from thinking about it. Emotionally drained, have been for years…blech.

 

Work…meh. Every day is just reinforcement of the fact that I never want to be a manager – I don’t know why people do it – I’m in charge of making sure that someone else doesn’t screw up, holding their hand, and listening to them whine? All while making sure that my own work is done? Sounds like raising a child, no thanks. We’re all adults here. Ugh, so annoying. I’m responsible but I didn’t sign up for this. I already don’t want to be there, so leave me in peace at my desk, don’t have 2 people up my ass all day long.

 

Still working on the moving 800 miles away and starting over thing…no news there. All I know is, it better come soon – between hearing from him, people at work, and something else I can’t put my finger on…I definitely need this asap. And I’m beginning to realize that I really must want this deep down in my heart because I’m still motivated and this feeling won’t go away. It’s not like a lot of things where you get all revved up and excited but then the buzz kinda fades away…kinda like all of those recipes you’re “going to make” on Pinterest.

 

I’m going to sleep now…before 10pm. Not even sorry.

How Lauren Got Her Groove Back

So a couple hours ago after I left the gym, I came home to shower and had my tropical body wash going with Rihanna’s “What’s My Name” blaring. I guess the scent and the steel drums put me in quite the Caribbean zone for a second, and I got excited when I remembered that I’ll be in the Bahamas on Saturday. And for some reason, I pictured some greased up muscular man walking in slow motion towards me down the beach. Kinda like this:

(I google-imaged “Bahama man,” fyi.)

And then I envisioned us in the club later that night. And I quickly had an ‘aha’ moment: maybe that’s just what I need right now. I’m 26, single, feeling good from my workouts, and just had my heart broken – I clearly need to take advantage and do something about this. I need to seize the opportunity and just let loose, have some fun, and forget about what’s his name (well, all of them). Then I quickly realized that I’m so incredibly repulsed by the male race right now, that I’m not capable of “just having fun,” which is kinda sad. More than likely, I’ll inhale 5 fruity umbrella drinks and end up crying in the sand somewhere over my heartache. OR, it could become liquid courage and I’ll give some hottie the time of day on the dance floor, wow him with my charm, reel him in, and then shut him DOWN. Not like I’ll ever have to see him again. Guys do it all the time, no big deal. The way I feel, the “maneater” is close to coming out for sure. So maybe this will be the perfect setting to do it in…(don’t judge me)


Speaking of which, on a very related note, I find it ironic that when I google-imaged “how stella got her groove”, one of the top results after the important one, was this:


which is a big deal because 1) I actually told someone today that I recently had a “Waiting to Exhale” moment and referenced this very scene; 2) I actually referenced Angela Bassett today because she is known for her killer arms, and I said that lately people have been acting like I have her arms. So yeah, it’s hilarious to me that Angela is basically my spirit animal right now, and every aspect of my life seems to be coming back to her today. Ha.

All I want right now:

  • for someone to bring me unlimited amounts of iced coffee on demand – I just ran out, need to study more, have a taste for it, and don’t feel like driving to get it
  • to not have to study anymore
  • to quit my job (no matter where I go, the corporate world is NOT pretty and I’m over it – it’s not a necessary evil; there are other things in life and I need to get there asap; I liked new job bc it isn’t old job, but now I’m realizing that it’s still corporate bs)
  • to travel the world
  • …so basically, those 3 are possible if (WHEN) I win the Powerball tonight.
  • to go to the gym again – I went this morning, tried some new moves, and am addicted. That’s my idea of fun (??) And I’ve always feared/hated pull-ups. Now I’m hooked because they’re giving me the arms I’ve always wanted and everyone keeps complimenting me – I don’t hate it.
  • …no really, this is a big deal – ten years of track and zero definition in my arms until this year – they were always just there and blah. lol
  • to have a job that requires me to walk around in spandex all day…my dream. I just want to have my own gym.
  • that if I still have to have a finance job, at least make it one that has me in a different city every week (are you noticing the pattern – I just need to gtfoh? yep.)
  • to let go of my anger towards him/relationships in general. it’s eating away at me and really not cute.
  • …actually, people in general are annoying me lately – oh, look at that, I just ignored a call lmao I just want to be left alone – I just have a lot of resentment/have lost faith in people, and kinda want to be left alone. Just let me be a hermit until I build up enough strength to deal with people’s crap again…
  • 6 days til the Bahamas – I just might not come back. As much as my urge to travel lately has been to go and see what the world has to offer, more and more it’s also to run away from my problems…not that you really can…because I’d be feeling the same stuff no matter what country I’m in – your feelings stay with you even if you’re not seeing certain people. I mean, I haven’t been seeing a lot of people lately, but I still have to deal with the emotions. But taking in new locations can serve as a great distraction, ya know?